And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?



Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Afraid, yet filled with joy

So the women hurried away from the tomb, afraid yet filled with joy, and ran to tell his disciples.  Matthew 28:8 (New International Version, ©2010)

What is it to be afraid and yet still able to run filled with joy?  I have felt God pulling me in a direction which frightens me.  He wants to me to step out more and stand in front of others to sing and entertain.  Something I never considered enjoyable.  Singing alone at home, or with the church choir, or in front of a voice coach is easy enough.  But the thought of me alone, singing in front of a crowd, it makes my throat tighten and my voice shaky.  How do I learn to run with joy, or sing well with enthusiasm, when I have stage fright?

Perhaps the answer lies in who or what I am thinking about while singing.  The crowd?  All the mistakes and criticism of the past?  Others who perform better than I?

The women at the tomb where filled with joy because their savior was alive.  What was dead to them was now alive.  The angel told them “He is risen”, and they knew a great miracle happened.  They knew the glory of God waited, ahead of them, in Galilee.

Perhaps to alleviate my fear, I need to look ahead at the glory to come.  Not at the crowd or the past but at the future God has prepared for me.  Whatever that future may be, always remember it is God’s pleasure to give me good things. If only I am willing to receive.

 

“Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. Luke 12:32 (New International Version, ©2010)


Dear Lord, let me feel your pleasure on stage.  Let remember the dearly loved child you created me to be.  Let me keep my mind and heart on you so that I may run filled with joy.

Monday, January 10, 2011

The Great Light

Once upon a time there was a woman who had grown weary from her labor.  She went into her room, alone, closed the door, and lay down on the bed.  She pulled a blanket over herself for warmth and closed her eyes. 
She woke standing in the middle of a road paved with gold cobblestones.  Along the street stretched clean sidewalks; lawns cut, pruned, and blossoming with flowers; houses scrubbed and polished as if the greatest holiday parade marched down this street today.  She knew in her heart that hungry children did not roam these streets.  Sad and suffering relatives did not visit, hoping for help.  People living here never locked doors against intruders.   
In the distance a light shone brightly like the noon day sun.  It sat low over the house tops, not up the sky like the sun she had watched all her life.  Suddenly a beep sounded behind her.  She turned around to see a car sitting in the middle of the road.  People inside the car motioned for her to move over so they could pass.  As she walked to the sidewalk, they smiled and waved while driving on down the road.           
She walked on the sidewalk towards the great light.  She passed couples and groups of friends, chatting as they ambled down the road in either direction.  Some smiled and nodded to her, others were so engrossed in their conversation they barely noticed her.  She saw children running, playing, pulling fruit from a tree and tossing it to each other. 
She walked under a low hanging branch and picked a piece of fruit for herself.  She held it in her hand and studied its round shape, stem, and smooth skin.  She bit into the dark purple peel which gave way to a juicy flesh, filling her mouth with the sweetness of peaches.  She bit again and again, consuming the fruit and remembering the best desserts from her grandmother’s table.  When she had eaten everything but the core, she held it up and dropped in her mouth, chomping down on seeds and stem until nothing remained but juice on her lips and hands.  She continued walking, licking the juice from her hands, not caring who might be watching.   
She came to an open plaza with gold cobblestones forming concentric circles.  At one end of the plaza, large marble steps, thirty feet wide and twenty steps high, climbed up to a flat platform.  On it the magnificent white light shone with the brightness of a thousand earthly suns.  She approached the steps slowly, staring at the light without needing to shield her eyes.  Other people stood in the plaza, some kneeled at the steps, and others lay prostrate on the ground.     
She looked up and saw in the midst of the light a man sitting on a white throne.  The light emanated from his heart, concealing his appearance.  She felt the power of a pulse coming from him as if his heart consisted of a thousand drums beating in unison. With each beat, power flowed through him and out into all that exist.  She realized that every living thing, every emotion of passion and love, every idea of beauty and peace, every neuron spinning on its axis, every tree, mountain, and rock originated here, from him.
She stood consumed by the glory and beauty of the light with the pulse beating in her ears.  She felt every gentle touch she had ever known, every kiss that had graced her check, every reassuring squeeze of her shoulder, and every loving hug.  As she sighed from memories of comfort and love, her knees began to weaken.   She closed her eyes and leaned her head backwards. 
She opened her eyes and found herself back in her bedroom, alone, covered by a blanket.  She looked around her room and saw the door she closed earlier.  She knew the world waited for her to return to her labors.  Normally the story would end here and the words The End would appear on a blank page.  But this story does not end, it continues forever.  This story is her future, the beginning of her eternity.  This story begins when all her labors are finished and she is laid to rest.  
This beginning is available to anyone who chooses it.   For everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.  His name is Jesus.
Romans 10:13




Sunday, January 9, 2011

Moses and motorcycles

 1 Moses answered, “What if they do not believe me or listen to me and say, ‘The LORD did not appear to you’?”
10 Moses said to the LORD, “Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”
 13 But Moses said, “Pardon your servant, Lord. Please send someone else.”
Exodus

I have a motorcycle which I have not ridden lately.  I have become afraid.  Afraid of falling, afraid of crashing, afraid of looking stupid.  God keeps nudging me to get on the bike and ride.  He thinks it would be good for me.  I can think of other things that would be better for me.  God believes I can do the former without neglecting the later. 

Moses was called to an amazing journey and he was afraid.  God confronted his fear with miracles appropriate to the task Moses was expected to do.  His staff changed into a snake.  His hand was covered with leprosy then healed. God did not allow Moses’ fear to deter him.  God pressed on to plans Moses could not imagined.

Surely if God ask us to do a small thing we should avoid analyzing it and determining within ourselves if it is important.  Stop trying to hide out fear in excuses and business.  Even though I know what I should do, I still need God’s help to get it done, so I pray about small things.

Dear Lord, it is a small thing to ride a motorcycle.  You are God of small things, large plans, and great miracles. Help me to let go of my fear and anxiety.  Teach me to trust You in all I do.  Allow me to walk and ride with confidence down the path You have prepared.  Give me the certainty that Your miracles will be comparable to the task given to me.

Monday, January 3, 2011

The year of God's favor

 1 The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
   because the LORD has anointed me
   to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
   to proclaim freedom for the captives
   and release from darkness for the prisoners,
2 to proclaim the year of the LORD’s favor
   and the day of vengeance of our God,
Isaiah 61:1-2

Dear Lord open doors that I may speak the good news to those in need.  Teach me to mend any brokenness in my relationships and to seek healing for all the people I meet.  Set me free of the things which separate me from You.  Help me shine Your light into the darkness around me, and into lives of those near and far.  Let this be the year of Your favor in all that I do.